Alot has happened in the past week. So let me start from Tuesday, and display it all for you.
Tuesday I talked about this day a bit. Huge crotch burn on a rope swing. That night was quite the night to remember. A whole gangload of people came to my house, many movies were watched, and $80 in pizza was eaten. Very late in the morning, snuggling between myself and Caroline commenced. This was to cause muchas confusion later.
Wednesday Caroline gets in trouble for staying out all night. She is currently banned from seeing me. On top of this, we talk, and she tells me that she wants to be just friends. She claimed the snuggling was an act of friends, and that for the second time we are still just friends.
Thursday Derek tells me to buck up and “fight until the biiter end.” He believes the whole “just be friends” thing is a crock of shit. (this is highly summarized, by tummy feels funny).
Friday I tell Caroline we urgently need to talk. I sit her down and tell her I have feelings for her. I explain to her that is she is a bizonkadoo cool girl. She likes then honesty, says she must think. That night, I further elaborate. Explain my case a bit more.
Saturday I see Caroline at the walk for life in Healdsburg, somehow she was able to slip away from her parents that night. I sense uncomfortability,, and for some reason this sends my mind into a panic. Very Bad. That night, we talk again. And I more things are explained/understood/confirmed. Things go very well this time.
Sunday A rather eventless day on my end. Caroline’s grandfather passes away, which adds alot more unwanted shit to her plate.
Monday Tonight. I work, and come home to discover a drunken party taking place at my house. The gang’s all there. Many things happen. I call Anjie the devil to Dan and Jasper. Anjie overhears on the way to the bathroom. This fucks up everything. Strangely enough, sobriety wasn’t enough to keep me from doing something regretful. I’m such a fuckhead. The thing is, I didn’t really mean it. I call lots of things ‘the devil.’ I hope Anjie forgives me. About 20 minutes ago she got up and went for a walk after I apologized. This is mostly why I stopped to write this. Strangely enough, it hasn’t helped. I made Anjie cry, I feel terrible. damnit…..
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