I just …..

I just watched an episode of Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, that made me want to cry. Sometimes I’m just to emotional about things, but I won’t get into it. The episode was a commentary on obedience and loyalty in soldiers to a commander. First, 2 ships fight a battle, 1 ship is sent on a suicide mission by the foolish commander, the other is the federation ship. They both end up crashing on a planet, and the episode begins. The Jem’hadar ship Has 10 Jem’Hadad soldiers on board, all completely loyal to a treacherous commander. The part that made me so sad was this: The commander sends the Jem’Hadar off to attack the federation, but before hand gives the federation the attack plan. He hopes his troops will all die so he may surrender and live on. Benjamin Sisko (Federation commander) talks to the Jem’hadar soldier who leads beforehand, and their conversation was sickening. Ben proposes surrender, Ramata’klan (the Jem’Hadar), declines, saying he was ordered to attack. Ben says his commander is betraying him, Ramata’klan tells Ben he knows, but there is nothing he can do. He only obeys. Ben says it is foolish to throw his life away. Ramata’klan says it is not his life to throw away, but his commanders. Then the Jem’Hadar kamikaze the federation, all of them dieing in the process. Such a senseless waste of lives, and yet how often has this occured? All the armed forces in the world teach loyalty and discipline. Give your life for your country and commander, never question orders. Look what it results in. It was so sad. I’m sure none of this makes sense to anyone, and now I’m just rambling, but If you could watch the episode through my eyes you might understand. Star Trek teaches lessons as well as tells stories. They make disguised political commentaries on every episode. Many people don’t understand this and think of Star Trek as a stupid sci-fi show. If only they understood. Well….

It’s friday, that’s why I’m hopeful. I’m going to see spiderman with a few people, hopefully that will be fun. Saturday I want to go pre-birthday iceskating, that should be really great. Sunday, I might goto dinner, might not, very dependent…… …… hmm, yes, I think I’ll do a bit of journal reading then make my way to Santa Rosa for a bit possibly…. or find out what Derek is up to … yes.